Ilasub

I do not know  who can understand my  express，I am chinese，my English is very  low. I want to talk about my  paintings.     may be it have many   technical  mistake，expression of defect.whatever..I loss my appreciate ability. and  I need someone lead me to become more and more mature.every night I ask myself. what should I do? Why I feel very anxious?  I love art, Meanwhile this road could be fucking  endless and  painful.